honest.

i am a fallen human.

lately it's become even more apparent.

i have so much trouble accepting the love, grace and mercy extended to me.

and that's my fault.

i'm constantly doing things that aren't glorifying to God.
and just when i'm down in the darkest pits, i'm reminded of His love for me.

oh how wide, how deep.
mercy washes over me.
by Your blood, i've been set free.
love unending covers me.
--burkhalter

i've been blessed with amazing friends that encourage and love me.
and the past few weekends have been spent with some of those friends.
i am in constant amazement of those people, and their love for the Lord...and others.


i received an email recently that said:

Over the past few months I have realized even moreso what a fallen human I am and how easily I give in to my sinful flesh above the goodness the Lord has to offer me. If you only knew the depth of my sin...
I guess that's just more of an example of God's goodness and my inability to do anything on my own.
But He can use me when I feel useless.

when i read that, i thought, "why can't i be that honest with myself?"

why. can't. i. just. be. honest?
with honesty comes healing.
with healing, acceptance of mercy.
with acceptance of mercy, love.

depth of mercy, can there be, mercy still reserved for me?
can my God, his wrath forbear, me the chief of sinners spare?
oh how wide, how deep. mercy washes over me.
by Your blood i've been set free. love unending covers me.